Day 16

Mari Udagawa
Apr 10, 2019
2 min read

Inpatient Eating Disorder Treatment

Day 16 schedule:

1:20am- woke up, went back to sleep

4:00am- woke up, went back to sleep

5:45am- woke up, stretch

7:35am- Vital signs, weight

8:40am- Breakfast

9:00am- Free time, blog, study, stretch, 1 hallway walk

10:30am- Snack 1

11:00am- Free time, study

11:30am- Session with doctor

12:00pm- Stretch

12:40am- Lunch

1:30pm- 1 hallway walk, study, blog

2:30pm- Snack 2

2:35pm- 1 hallway walk,

3:35pm- Free time,Stretch

5:10pm- Shower

5:40pm- Dinner

6:05pm- Free time, blog, study

8:10pm- Stretch

8:40pm- Snack 3

10:00pm- Went to bed

With doctor :

I told her that I do not want to take antidepressant because they I might gain weight with taking antidepressant.

I did some research yesterday and a lot of evidence, but doctor told me it is not true.

I am not sure how the pill will effect for my body, I told her that I do not want to take it.

She have told me I am extremely under weight. I have to gain to get out from here and be healthy.

Thoughts:

I'm feeling better than yesterday since I went to sleep at 10pm.

My skin got little better I feel like.

I have thought that I want to hide food every meal. Pineapple makes me anxious, but I do not want to take boost either.

I hided my food. Just one bite, but they have find out. I am so scared to eat a large amount of carbs.

Nurses and everyone is not judging me that I hided my food. But I feel like they are judging me. They seems upset that I hided. But I am scared and to be honest I do not want to hide food, but my mind will not think this way when I am facing food infant of me.

Nurses annoys me. They always told me not to workout. I hate people starring at me whole time when I'm eating. I hate their attitude. I hate when they say "eat" I feel anxious everyday whole time. So stressful.

Alyssa came in for afternoon shift. (assistance nurse) Felt computable with her since she is same age as me plus she does not judge me.