Day 15

Inpatient Eating Disorder Treatment

Day 15 Schedule:

2:00am- Woke up, went back to sleep

5:20am- Woke up, Stretch

7:40am- Vital signs, weight

8:30am- Breakfast

9:00am- Free time, 1 lap hallway walk, Stretch

10:30am- Snack1

11:00am- Session with Psychologist

12:00pm- Stretch

12:45pm- Lunch

1:15pm- Free time, study,1 hallway walk

2:40pm- Snack 2

4:00pm- Free time, Stretch

5:20pm- Shower

5:40pm- Dinner

6:10pm- Free time, 1 hallway walk

8:00pm- Stretch

8:30pm- Snack 3

9:50pm- Free time

10:00pm- Went to bed

With Doctor: (Schack)

I have to her that I saw my daily calories and feel anxious. I have two minds that one is saying"you need to eat to get better, and get out from this hospital as soon as possible", but the other side, "if you eat, you will gain weight" So hard to fight over bad thought. I need to shift, but so hard.

Doctor gave me a journal. I have to assignment to do and have to talk with Bobby (psychologist) on Wednesday.

I have asked her when I can leave here and she told me I have to gain weight and build heart mussel to have regular hart rate. Also I have asked her about anti-depression pills.

With Bobby, (psychologist)

I told her that if the food is not real food, I get anxious. Real foods means pure food, no additives, no crackers or bread, grahams. I would like to gain weight with real foods like potato, quinoa, rice, fruits, protein.

She have asked me what is my strength. I told her that I do not know. I am good at physical activity, nutrition, but she told me that is one of eating disorder problem.

When she told me about labs, I like doing labs.

Living in Hawaii and working at lab department is one of the option. (maybe)

I have told her that dietitian told me there are no healthy foods in this world and there are nutrition in every foods, and I do not believe that. I have always been caring about the foods what I eat and there is good food and bad food. healthy or not healthy.

Thoughts:

I'm not feeling well.

I have had breakfast with fear eating pineapple. I'm not sure which has more protein and good for my body boost or pineapple, but I chose pineapple.

My meals are getting larger. I am satisfied when I have a lot of protein, but large amount of carbs makes me anxious.

My skin is breaking out...

I got anti-depression pills. Pills make my metabolism and every system in my body slower. So it means I have fast metabolism, but it will be slower = I will not burn calories as much as I do now. I'm scared so I told nurse to stop the pill. I will talk to the doctor tomorrow.

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