Day8

Inpatient eating disorder treatment

Day8 schedule:

5:00am- woke up

5:30am- Stretch, free time

7:45am- Vital signs, weight

8:30am- Breakfast

9:00am- 2 laps hallway walking

9:30am- Free time, stretch,

10:30am- Snack 1

11:00am- Session with Doctor

11:30am- Free time, stretch

12:30am- Lunch (session with IB)

1:00pm- Section with psychologist

2:00pm- Free time stretch

2:45pm- Snack 2

3:30pm- 2 laps hallway walk

3:45pm- Free time, stretch

5:20pm- Shower

5:45pm- Dinner

7:45pm- Freetime

8:45pm- Snack 3

9:15pm- Free time

10:30pm- Stretch, took melatonin

12:

Food:

I do not to track food anymore

With Doctor Shack:

She told me my stay in the hospital will be longer. I am so disappointed and feel sad. I really want to go home.

I have told her that I am afraid to eat since the portion is getting larger. She told me that they are not trying me to be fat. She told me I will still be really skinny when I get discharged. I felt better.

With Psychologist:

I feel more comfortable talking with her. We have talked about my family, father, mother, grandparents. Also I told her the portion of food that I get is getting bigger and I am really afraid. Yesterda when I talked with dietitian, she asked me what my fear foods are and I realized it is portion. It is not about which food. I am afraid of the portion of the food that I get here.

Psychologist have told me that I have to trust my dietitian. She is not messing with me. she is not making me fat. Just healthy. Healthy that I have to trouble with health relates. I have 2 thoughts. one is "It is fine to eat and gain weight, otherwise my life will not come back and I will be sick whole my life. I want to be healthy and have a kids, get married. I want to sexy want to have butt and boobs. the there one is "I will gain weight. I will not have my abs like before. So scared" She have suggested me that when I am afraid to eat, think about those thoughts. Try to bring up the healthy thought. I will try from now on.

Today, when I was eating food that I am afraid of, the sitter told me to finish it. They are not suppose to make a comment. I was mad and made be more uncomfortable to eat that food. made me more scared. I am trying to finish. But I am scared. SO F SCARED. Psychologist told me I should have told her to not make a comment.

We have talked about residential treatment and part time treatment.

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